Sunday, January 22, 2012

Drive. Ambition. The desire to create. I don't have it at this moment. Does anyone else feel this way from time to time? Wait...I need time. Time is what will give me those feelings. Something I don't have right now.

I've been working 12 hour days. It's my dream to be out of debt. No house payments, no car payments. Just the regular monthly bills that roll in. That way if we want to pick up and leave at any moment we can.

After this show, I began thinking about what it would be like to be free to do what I want to do. Not be constrained to a day job for a living. I'd love to be able to set up a little shop and create beautiful art, meet new people, talk about creativity and what makes people smile.

Finding the time to add new things to my shop, and be challenged to come up with more designs would so much fun. No stresses would also help me lose weight as I wouldn't be stuffing myself with food to block out all those issues that keep arising in this fast pace world that I can't seem to get a grip on.

I guess doing what I need to do at this moment is all I can give and once the goal is achieved my new life will start. I guess it's time to learn a little patience.

1 comment:

Lona said...

Coming to terms with the life that IS while you still hang on to your dreams of the life you WANT is a challenge. You can easily get discouraged while you wait. I've been trying to watch for God's blessings around me in the little things--sunshine streaming through the window, the beauty of snow, kids' laughter, etc. I say "thank you" when I notice these blessings, and it helps me enjoy my life right here right now. It might help with your creative block, too. Though when you are physically exhausted, creativity takes a back seat to survival. Hugs...